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Thursday, May 01, 2008

it really makes me wonder what should i type in this entry. i have so much to say but my mind aren't functioning now.... no matter how long i slept, i still feel very tired and stress.
life simply sucks now!!!

my PP advisor has not even get back to me!!! i wondered did he even checked his mail or something?i send him the draft of my scope on the sunday morning & today's wednesday & he has not yet get back to me!!
they kept asking people to submit the pp scope & even count down for you!! then that advisor is not even replying your emails despite sending him twice. IF that's so, why the hell does he ask us to mail him beforehand?? i can just submit through the PP portal and he can read through.. if it's rejected, i don;t mind redo-ing, compare to now, where there's not respond.!!!! *SCREAM*

firstly - here comes all my ranting. [i'm just being frank,this is where i vent my anger and everything]
i hate monday lesson plus i can't stand the team i have on monday. i don't mean that i don't like them but i just don't like the way they are doing. my tolerance has it's limit & this doesn't means that the more i tolerate, the more you are doing. i have been tolerating it for 2 weeks & i kept telling myself " just let it go,it's only 1 day per week".
If they feel that they can do it, then what's the point of doing it in a team?? they can jolly do it individually and not discuss it in a team. When they want to discuss, please take a look around you. the class is not toally 100% malay,there's chinese. when they kept speaking in malay, have they even spare a thought on how would i feel when i'm in the same team with them?? i don't understand a single thing they are saying. i feel 101% left out on that monday and i swear i have already pack my bag & want to leave the class immediately when the 2nd break starts.before the first break, they asked me to do the ppt & i have already opened it & started on it. are they playing a trick on me or what?? ask me to do the ppt & when i'm done a few slide, they ownself are doing another ppt?? and when they are doing the ppt, have they even asked if my idea and what i want to add inside the ppt?? they didn't and they just continue speaking in malay and type that bloody ppt without me knowing anything. i don't even know what they put inside, what does everything mean. if they did say some of us are racist, aren't they racist themself??
hey seriously, i feel very sad that i really want to break down so badly.
met jo and bl and they told me to do mine own ppt myself . if the faci asked why im not presenting or why i dunno anything, i will just said " i dun understand malay".
chatted alot with others in the class & at least i know,i'm the the only one who is experiencing it. sighh.

i guess my ranting is rather too long...

yesterday has my first ut. it was extreme difficult to me especially when the test was after school. my mind was already dead and not functioning anymore & this show why i can't think when i stare at the question. my mind was totally blank. *claps* for me to flunk my 1st UT.

i'm still feeling very tired now!! & im feeling rather emo. EMO EMO EMO!!! :(

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