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Friday, January 26, 2007

life sucks. it isnt getting any better. i am dropping into the deep ground full of emotional problems. tons of problems for me to handle yet increasing as days pass.

22-23 jan
reachedmy mum's workplace quite early thus i went to walk around the place.saw lots of nice clothing,bags,earring but didnt want to buy it. i finally get to rest around 2plus and i am feeling so restless. sleepover at my jurong home for 1day. it was very errie actually. then called deardear around 1130 and we chatted till about 1plus going 2 cause i was very sleepy and my eyes was very soared.however,i was tossing very badly on bed and couldnt get to sleep.mum woke me up at 6am but i was already awaken at that time. i didnt sleep for a night. took a cab down to sista school and then went to buy my breakfast. went back home to have my breakfast but i slept on the sofa till 11plus.wash up and quickly took a bus down to sista school to fetch her home. went back to my westcoast house and dear called me to chat after his work. =)

24jan
went down to my mum's workplace to help her as usual.however,i am feeling extremely tired. i guess i havent had a good sleep the previous. walking to and fro to help her buy stuffs and as usual,i didnt want to meet the fruit stall guys so i walked the longer way.however,no matter where i walked,i will still see them.damnit.so yup,took a train home cause im really worn out at that time.having a heavy eyes and will sleep at any particular time. it was already 11plus but deardear still didnt reply my message or called me.i was getting ultimatly worried for him and i flood his message by sending 3.however,he only reply me around 12plus and told me that he was playing game with lance and blahs. initially,i got so angry at him cause i was so worried for him yet he was playing games and he didnt even care about how i was feeling. however,what's over is over.i realised that it was usless to get angry or sad over it.sometimes,i just dun get him.his actions and words are really hurting. =/

25 jan
was feeling rather sick so i stayed home and didnt went down to my mum's workplace to help her out.was simpily rotting as much at home and at work.time passed by rather fast and it was already night time.was waiting for deardear to take his innitative to message or call me and he really did.so chatted with him for like 45minutes.then i went back online and off to bed.

26jan
woke up rather late today.dear was sicked today thus he didnt went to work in the morning.however,the stubborn him still want to go to work even though he was sick.fine.that;s it.he just dun want to take care of himself. LOL.
so now,i am here blogging this stuffs for the past few days. bc cant make it today so we cant go out le. anyway, BOREDOM kills. luckily, tml i am going to work at e stadium again.
i dun wish to get hurt anymore. =(

side-message : I WANT TO FIND BACK THE PAST THAT WE HAD. I DUN WANT EVERYTHING TO BE DRIFTED APART. I LOVE U REALLY.

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